Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us…” Hebrews 12:1
I’ve been avoiding my own blog for a while now. Accurately describing the last few months of our life is proving to be challenging for me. I wrote this entry in JUNE but am finally getting around to posting it.
We have never experienced a season like this before—one in which mandatory and anticipated waiting is being used to expose my feelings of angst and restlessness. My own denial about the timing in which we should be fully funded and leave subtly point back to my impatience and elevation of the cultural norm of self-sufficiency. God has reminded me, so lovingly, that I have allowed these ideas to foster idolatry in my heart and need to recalibrate to rest in Him—which I have found is so simple.
But simple and easy are not synonymous.
Recently, as I longed to be done with this process, God has reminded me that His timing for our funding, especially the timing of our departure, has everything to do His glory and sovereignty over the course of our career and most pertinent to me, with our refinement and ability to serve others before we leave.
This is a season in which we can see God moving so vividly, He is dealing kindly with me–with us to expose our hearts for his pruning process. God is using this time to bring us closer to Him in our moments of discomfort and trepidation, becoming more confident and more connected, each day to the calling He has for us.
God has provided 80% of the monthly needs of our ministry and 42% of our outgoing fund in only six months!
We have been privileged to get to know the most encouraging individuals that have spoken His truth and love over us during this time. Our recent training at Headquarters reminded me of the depth of this calling. We have a unique opportunity to walk with people who are doing hard things for the glory of God, offering up their own comfort and security as holy and pleasing sacrifices for Him. These are people living on and off “the field” that are using their lives as ministries for what God has called them to. Some of our most encouraging encounters have been with followers committed to mobilizing or investing in others, to follow the command to make disciples.
They have inspired us to examine our hearts, to be made aware of what so easily entangles and hinders dependence on Him. So, we will continue to run the path marked out for us to see Him work through this ministry, especially in the times we wait on Him.
Simple but not easy. Intentional and so rewarding.